< Kubes >

 

Search me and all you’ll find on me is heartache

kiss me one last time and I’ll move along

touch me so i can start building resistance

how many times do I have to say I’m wrong

Leave me so I can stop feeding reaction

what are the chances we live to end up alone

I wish I knew where I could look to avoid distraction 

every engagement sneaks in a trial of its own

even when ends get met 

promises get to get broken 

bleeding your heart dry 

bleeding your heart dry

I see the tattoo on your neck

match the details of your dress

I see the vanities on fire

with your maneuvers to impress

I see the wrong boy wrack his brain 

trying to keep you entertained

I see the loneliness surround you 

with all your verdicts in the drain

make mistakes

while you can

keep your eyes on him 

but see me instead

lend your favor

your dime store favor 

you don’t have to kneel 

to protect your heart

maybe this time 

maybe next time 

maybe never

what’s a long time when you’ve burnt your laurels

even when ends get met 

promises get to get broken 

bleeding your heart dry 

bleeding your heart dry

and now the tattoo on my neck 

matches the details of your dress 

but all the intimacy’s dead

and complications start to set

I hear the wrong voice in my head 

say the words I wish I said

Yes all the things i wish

all the things i wish I’d said

lay your head on him

but see me instead

cause what he says in the nighttime 

won’t be true in the morning

make mistakes

while you can

lay your head on him

but see me instead

 

< Atomized >

 

make sure that no one

is watching if you’re dancing alone 

god forbid someone

should find an impressionable soul

here’s to your life 

may it be bright 

may you find love 

when you decide

Oh no, nothing is wrong 

I’m just dancing alone

atomized

I never saw this coming 

I never stood a chance 

I never rose above it 

now I’m delivered

make sure your focus

is drawn

where your thoughts are aligned 

god forbid someone should change 

your impressionable mind

my neighbors and friends 

say I should’ve jumped 

my neighbors and friends

are good for a bump

a blasé affair

where no one gets spared 

but no one can pay 

enough attention to care

atomized

I never saw this coming

I almost stood a chance

I never rose above it 

now I’m delivered

what we could’ve been 

we should’ve been 

what we could’ve been 

I wanna show you 

what we could’ve been 

we should’ve been

I wanna show you 

can’t we just try it again

 

< Sugar and Vice >

 

I’m shaped by your fingertips 

the power of touch

I’m addicted to your form

of counterfeit love

I’ll spend this trial 

avoiding the bench 

bathed in the light 

of freedom outside

you knew what came for us 

you worked it out that night 

under the tungsten light

I’m way in over my head

your razor stare

go somewhere to finally be here 

counterfeit love

mount your attack 

just to come back 

muscles get torn 

when feelings return

you knew what came for us 

you worked it out that night 

under the tungsten light 

you saw this coming

vulnerable vines

you ask the wrong questions

but want the right answers

buried in time

you ask the wrong questions 

but want the right answers

vulnerable vines

you ask the wrong questions

but want the right answers

 

< E. mpty  T. he  C. offers >

 

is this enough

to show you what I’m capable of

I’m bleeding from my head to my cuff 

staring won’t soak the blood

is this enough

to show you that I love you my dove

convince you that I’m interesting but 

I don’t know when enough is enough 

The safe word’s always a bluff

Time

casts your shadow

with mine

dead or alive

I’ll follow in line

rain empty the heavens 

rain empty the coffers

say say say say say say this isn’t over

I’ll get my nurse to turn me over and over 

when I can see in the dark

something ain’t right

is this enough

to show you what I’m capable of

I’m bleeding from my head to my cuff

say something dirty and snap out of it love 

The safe word’s always enough

Time

casts your shadow

in mine

dead or alive

I’ll follow in line

rain empty the heavens

rain empty the coffers

 

< walking habits >

 

I can’t believe our time is 

actually over

old bank receipts instead of 

love and devotion

I’ll keep a case unpacked 

and drink my tears away

now I’m a slave to all our 

outdated habits

program or deprogram 

listening to sabbath

I’ll force myself to walk 

just to change my pace

anyway

I’m alone when I’m around you 

anyway

anyway, you’re walking away

all of the secrets of a life we’ll never know 

gonna walk myself along

and all the habits of a life we’ll never know 

gonna walk my street alone

speed through this prism

musing through time

I hang in the balance of my biggest lie 

I’m thirsting for more

sounding my youth again

anyway

I’m alone when I’m around you 

anyway

anyway, you’re walking away

all of the secrets of a life we’ll never know 

gonna walk myself along

and all the habits of a life we’ll never know 

gonna walk my street alone

I’d rather keep you in my heart than in my debt

too much love to just forget

gonna walk away and look ourselves up in ten years

 

< 128 >

 

the more I am

the more I take

the more I want to be uncertain 

worry’s worse than being afraid 

regrets are choices made too late

I feel my breath warm as a prayer

turn to ice as it hits the air

my old man in disrepair

empty shoes too worn to wear

don’t let me hear you say life’s 

taking you nowhere

I know that you’re distant now but 

some part will be spared

let me go

let me go now

can’t you see how far we’ve come 

don’t you wanna see how far we’ll get 

this old house in disrepair

the turnaround is yonder yet

how critical

as the pair holds the knife

only a fool would reason

with the devil in these odds

all that i am

all that i’ll take

regrets are just choices made too late

don’t let me hear you say life’s

taking you nowhere

I know that you’re distant now but 

some part will be spared

let me go

let me go now

 

< deep red >

 

heaven in ruin

stranded somewhere between light and dark 

hidden while you stand still

by the silence of modern noise

you signed your name over to me 

we dedicate ourselves to see 

how far we might try to extend 

where you begin and where I end

(memories are all we’ll ever have) 

I heard the future calling

over the morning light

this future never started

headlights carve out the dark 

distance starts to ache more than hurt

the bitterness of where we are

buys one more drink at the hotel bar 

phantom limbs left the door ajar 

where we end up is who we are

how much more should we have know

I’ll just keep calm and take it slow

the bitter tasting pill I had to swallow is 

you don’t lead but you never follow

(memories are all we’ll ever have) 

I heard the future calling

ever so long ago

this future never started

I did all I could do

the hand I dealt’s the hand that beat me 

I tried to give myself completely

but this is what the future called out

(memories are all we’ll ever have)

I saw this future ending

over the morning light

this future’s never ending

I hope some day I’ll get it right

just one time

persuade me

one last time

persuade me

cause I’m walking away

last time

before we go

I hope some day I’ll get it right

I hear the seconds 

ticking the day 

while the emotion 

washes away

I hear the anger

mounting to nothing

its just the next crest of the wave 

sing it in silence

 

< act of contrition >

 

fall back

full moon

too much 

too soon

all your 

blue rooms

in their 

full bloom

and rather than suffer this torment

I would sooner induce this trance 

cause at almost the right time darling 

the floorboards move under your dance

and its right off the scene

where the man goes into the bathroom to bloody his nose

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it rising into my throat

I’m bored again

so bored again

I’m born again

so bored

pressure

on your thigh

option 

paralyzed

and rather than suffer this torment 

I would sooner commit this crime

in a pasture consumed by bloated bellies 

gorged on desire and wine

and acting on false contrition

is worse than admitting the lie

cause at almost the right step darling 

the action detaches from time

and its right off the scene

where the man starts clutching his shirt to signal his arrest 

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it

I can feel it rising into his chest

he’s bored again

so bored again

he’s born again

so bored

 

< O Please >

 

I’m not precious

I’m just walking around

digging my heals on thoughts about us

we were strangers

now we’re building a house

you look ahead like you want out

I’m not here

I just live here 

narrow plan

back door man

I’m not here

I just live here

I’m not myself when I’m around you anyhow

Oo

he said nothing’s over til it ends

some day you’ll get caught without a second chance 

so keep your secrets in your safe

with nothing but yourself

you’re gonna find somebody else

who can take you to the movies

I see windows that could 

have me in them

I see

stronger people leaning 

up against me

ah god,

I’m not precious

I’m just walking around

hang my head until I’m part of the ground

she’s looking at me

I wonder why

I grab my jacket and i follow behind

she’s looking at me 

or looking through me

(I don’t see nothing wrong

with you

coming home with me

No, i don’t see nothing wrong

with something that leads to nothing 

sweet nothing

I don’t see nothing wrong with you)

mother said I told you so

and daddy never cared

the strings that held us upright

were never really there

afraid to see my shadow fall

Oo

he said nothing’s over til it ends

some day you’ll get caught without a second chance 

so keep your secrets in your safe

with nothing but yourself

you’re gonna find somebody else

who can take you to the movies

 

< city walls >

 

your stare

a portrait of savoir faire

and I’ll wait

for them to catch their breath

and memorize your silhouette

along

the edges of your dress

where your surroundings shore like oceans

washing up in our devotion

 

leave me

out on your shore

breathless and hoarse

i’ll keep my promise

and wait for your call

these city walls

are your’s to dissolve

 

away

if only fear makes you stay

the vultures survive

on endings like these

along

the scratches of distress

where all our tendencies are clearly

marked to show who we are really

 

leave me

out on your shore

breathless and hoarse

i’ll keep my promise

and wait for your call

these city walls

are your’s to dissolve

 

(fading out here on your shore

lying here breathless and hoarse

I’ll wait until dawn

only so much more strength in me

to keep on waiting alone)

 

< Knots >

 

We’re not the way

that we had planned to be

on 7th and C

laughing at intimacy

 

the moment has passed

it came and went too fast

lightning never lasts

 

when I look at you

I see the sun in your eyes

I see windows through time

so much weight in your sigh

I wanna be in your life

but you won’t stay here in mine

I wanna be in your life

 

we’re practicing time

as strangers tonight

we’re practicing our lives

as strangers tonight